I was doing fine, even great up until last night. They have me on Darvocet for the pain and the pills are pretty big. Given that the entrance to my pouch from my throat is only the size of the end of a pencil, things have to be really small to fit through. Well I've been cutting up the pills into thirds and unfortunately last night, one got stuck in the opening. It was more scary than anything but after a two am crying phone call to my doctor, he said to sip warm liquids until it passes. I don't think it has passed yet though. I also think I've not been drinking enough water. I'm supposed to get down 70oz per day and so far I've managed 30oz and I'm starting to feel the effects, really weak and migrane headaches, which I can't take anything for because my pouch opening is blocked. So I've been crushing the darvocet and mixing well with water and sipping on that. Disgusting but migranes are nothing to fool with. Other than that, things are pretty good. I've graduated to 1oz (think shot glass) meals of 99% fat free cream soups over 30 mins (hahah I eat with a baby spoon again!) and boy, potato soup yesterday was an incredible treat for me. Having the taste of real food in your mouth rather than milk or water was almost overwhelming.

I have still had the problem with the gas. It just won't come out but finally I had my first bowel movement in a week so I hope the gas is next in line. I don't feel as bloated anymore but when I sleep - my insides still feel sore. So things are slowly moving along.

I see Dr. Chang on Thursday so he will tell me how much weight I've lost since then. I hope it's alot. hahah. They say don't weigh for the first two weeks because as your body heals, it retains more water and will give you a false understanding, like in the hospital I gained 5 pounds of water weight. After that, they say to weigh once a week, most of the ladies in my support group though weigh everyday. Obesity isn't just about weight, it's a disease and one that never really goes away. Much like an alcoholic. In order to keep on top of it, I have to be aware of every single thing I put into my body. I'm fairly confident that I will most likely never eat bread again. As much as it pains me to say that because it is something that I can easily overdo. I've always loved breads of any sort and for me, that was my gateway to this disease. But we'll see what the future holds. I'm not craving anything really yet although last night I had an extremely vivid dream of eating pizza. Boy do I love pizza and I hope that one day, I might be able to eat a small piece of whole wheat pizza or something of the like.

It's now 8pm and I'm going to sit down and watch some TV before bed. Most likely CNN to watch Sarah Palin get destroyed in reviews of her on the debate last night. She really makes all women look bad. I'm going to stop saying that I'm from the part of Canada connected to Alaska. Anyway guys. Lots of love from me to you. This road may be hard but nothing tastes as good as thin.

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P.S. for those of you wondering. GEORGE COMES HOME ON MONDAY! YAYAYAYAYAYAY!